Happy Mother's Day

Mother's day is a beautiful day where we honor any type of mother figure in our lives. It may not be biological or even adoptive. It could be a foster mom, a grandmother who takes care of you, a friends mother who took you in, or even a single father who has to take over the role of mother and father. Any way you look at it today is a spectacular day to honor those "moms" who love and care for us unconditionally.

Today we recognize all the wonderful things that mother's do. The love that they give and the happiness that they share and make us feel. I love my mom with all my heart and I cherish her for every single thing that she does for me. We fight, cry, laugh, love and live together and it is every single part of her that I love and I wouldn't have her any other way.

Here's a tribute to mother's and them doing what they do best by my favorite photographer.

And here is the photographer/mother herself and her beautiful family:

I absolutely love this photographer. I have mentioned her before and she is a friend of mine, but her work and the way she portrays family and everything she shoots is so amazing to me. It makes me want to do so much more with my photography when I get the resources. She inspires me :) If you want more of this wonderful photographer you can visit her site and blog at http://www.jodified.com/

I wish that I had pictures of my wonderful mother doing what she does best but due to me being away at college I haven't been able to get those. However, she is a wonderful person and you will all just have to take my word for it :)

So I would just like to say thank you to all you wonderful mother's for everything!

P.S. For those who care and read my post yesterday I am feeling much better thanks to a long talk with my mom. I just thought I would let you know :)

Complications

Why does life have to be so complicated? Some say that it doesn't have to be, but to me, the complication is inevitable. It cant be avoided. No matter what you do in life or where you go or who you spend it with, there will always be complications. They are found in figuring out what to do in life, or where you want to do it, or finding someone to spend it with. No matter what there is complication. Its what you do with that complication, though, that makes you who you are.

For me, complication is an everyday thing, and I don't particularly like the way I handle it. I cry whenever I am alone. My life is so incredibly complicated I cant even explain it. I have such a hard time feeling happy lately and I don't know what to do about it. I cry all the time and I can't figure out why. I have lived with most of these complications my entire life but its here and now where I find myself having the hardest time with them. Maybe its because I no longer have to be strong in front of my siblings or my parents and pretend that nothing is wrong with me. I have so much more alone time being away from my family, and because I don't have to hide my feelings as much as I did before, because I didn't want anyone to know, they are all coming in an abundance now.

My sad feelings are all overwhelming me and it doesn't help that I am really stressed out right now. I have to decide where I want to go to school next year. Both choices could either be wonderful and amazing or terrible and I could regret my decision. I have to make that huge decision soon and I have never been more afraid of regret. That may be because I have made a really stupid decision recently that I really regret. Regret is the worst feeling in the world and I am so terrified of regretting something else. I never want to have to ask myself the question "why" again.

But, like I said, its how you deal with all these complications that makes you who you are. Even though I know my friends will read this and ask me to tell them what's bothering me, or let me know that I can always talk to them, I don't think I will tell them. Of course I already know they are there for me, and its not because I don't love them or trust them, but this is how I deal with my complications. Sometimes I cant help but get upset in front of them and I do tell them things, its just that all my life I have worked so hard to hide all of my real feelings for various reasons, maybe that's a bad thing, but its all I know. It's who I am.

So why am I posting my feelings on the Internet where anyone can see? Honestly, I have no idea.